An encouragement to those of you who have hit rock bottom: GOD is ABLE

16-23 July 2012

I want to encourage you if you are in a difficult situation and facing conflict in your life. These experiences I write about just do not happen to me in the world, it happens to people who take their stand on the rock-Jesus, who take their relationship with God seriously and still can praise God when they are falling apart. Let me remind you I am 22 years of age, a young lady, although I feel at a ripe old age at times (eye brow up), I do not limit myself. I push through. When you persevere and demand the supernatural you go places in the spiritual realm and the mysteries of God become known to you. I remind myself of Gods promises and that he is my FATHER. I warn Satan when I find him I will give him a few smacks and drop the word of God on his head. Not because of me, I have no power but that resurrected power lives in me and that is Jesus.

I am thinking of my besty Vannessa Govender, when we see Satan taking advantage of Gods people it upsets us and we become violent. This means waging war (Remember the post called A declaration when waging war) for us and we will go to war as Soldiers for Christ (Previous Post called Soldiers for Christ) and in style too.

This is my story and it can be yours to………

I was between a rock and a hard place. I thought I hit rock bottom because everything was going wrong for me, well so my natural mind thought at one point. Teaching practice started on the 16^th of July 2012, I had a problem with my mentor. He scared my insides out (Straight face). I only had my last few South African rands in my sequence black wallet. (Blush face for my bling wallet). My allergies were spreading throughout my body (horrific to imagine). My Microsoft 2010 on my Toshiba laptop went crazy and then I realized I had a trial version and never download it when my besty Nicolan Steffan Govender also known as NS Govender (did I mention he teaches Ns-Natural Science) {bust laughing} insisted I install it. I told him ill do it later, every time he reminded me ill tell him later, later, Stef, Later!

Guess what? #thinking face#

 Later never came. (Cynical smile) How on Earth was I going to make worksheets now or do my other work?

Do not dare answer the question

Did you read my post called “a written reflection on my thoughts”?

 I was honest about my writing; I quote “It’s been years since I have written anything down with regards to my thoughts, feelings, and inspirations of theories. When I say years, I mean since high School that is. Maybe it is because of the Globalization and the introduction of blackberry’s which I had to switch off due to distractions and another is my Mother who swings the door open with just one touch. I also have to admit my very untidy writings that I, myself fail to interpret #crazy# I know, thankfully Love Letter days are over. I would never be able to get my message across”

Now you understand why I was panic mode? (Eye brow up).

 I got more which happened; my purple berry’s battery was dying within three hours. I need my phone for many reasons, ministry is important and my lecturer will need to contact me. Ministry over the lecturer, I’m aware my lecturer contacting me seems to be made more important when reading but is not the case. You should know me by now. Lecturer from the university of kwa-Zulu Natal in south Africa-Pinetown calls me on the 15^th of July 2012, Sunday, the day before teaching practice to tell me she is coming to crit my lesson on Wednesday (18^th July) when I suppose to be observing lessons on the first week of teaching practice. What a wonderful way to start my final year teaching practice (sigh). I had my plate full but no appetite to eat (sarcasm).

 What next?

 Oh my hair iron did not want to come on. Every girl’s nightmare, please wake me up. Pinch me if you have to darling.

In the midst of everything I was experiencing in my life at once, I told myself, my father is with me, Abba will not leave me, I said with tears in my eyes “God if you brought me to it you will take me through it”. I am sensitive okay; sometimes I am and other times I am firm. I watch Oprah and cry (hands blocking eyes). I am currently dealing with my sensitivity. I believed strongly I will get through it. I also told myself God is in control. When I prayed I said to God “God, will you ever lie to me? Are you lying to me? You are not man that you will lie. I have faith in you God that you will show up in my situation because you are faithful to your promises; your word is full of your promises.” I begin to prophecy the supernatural over my life and every situation. I said to Abba, I will be a living testimony and I will reach Nation with my life, all for your Glory because I am nothing without you (previous post called who am I without Jesus). Afterwards I worshiped God in his throne room.

God came and embraced me, his presence revived me. I felt as if I had no obstacle yet I had a mountain before me.

How can this be the case?

I understood GOD Is ABLE

GOD IS A SUPERNATURAL GOD

GOD IS BIGGER THAN MY PROBLEMS

Scenes to follow:

My lecturer turned out to be such an angel pie hehehehe and when she called me the night before she mentioned I must not be scared she is here to help me. It was pure motivation, I could see my shadow and knew there must be light even in the dark tunnel. The lecturer from the university came to crit my Natural Science grade seven class on Pure substances and mixtures. I emptied my mother’s cupboards looking for seeds to use as mixtures. It was a success! When we sat down in the staff room to discuss my lesson. She smiled, held my arm and said I AM SO HAPPY WITH YOU, YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKE TO BE AN EXCELLENT TEACHER. God came through for me. He elevated me like Noah in the flood. She spoke so highly off me to my Teacher Liaison (Teacher in the school who is in charge of student teachers) and principal but my rating was average. This makes no sense but hey MY GOD IS ABLE. My lecture is coming again on the 1^st of August. I believe in God of the second chance. My second crit lecture I did well and got an A, Thanks to God. I believed God will come through for me and he did with my crit for Natural Science. My other two crit lessons went well with the university lecturer for Life Orientation and I got 95 % for both. My internal mentors where supportive and gave me A’s. Remember I said he scared my insides out. This individual complained to my teacher Liaison that I lack confidence. I almost cried hearing my teacher Liaison tell me those words. I know if I lacked confidence I would not be doing so well. I explained to her how this mentor makes me nervous, does not give me a chance in the classroom, is confused about content and forgets instruction given to me. I told her I find it hard to believe because I go out of my way making worksheets; he even used my worksheet as an assignment to send to the department, which I marked those 80 scripts and Sir confused a question with one class so I had to have different memos. After teaching in his class for a crit lesson, he interrupts me all the time, gives me a lecture after school and as I am falling apart on my way home I find my best Steffan has left me making an assumption I left him. My dear friend is sitting with my mother at my house.can u believe that? 
I am crying like a tsunami and my best friend is comfortably sitting in my house. 
I was all alone in the natural, I could not understand why did he not bbm me or wait or look around for me, the school isn’t that big, now is it?

BUT

God wanted me to realize he is able and I should trust him and not man. When all the people are gone and all you left with is God then you finally comes to the realization you have everything you need because all you ever needed is God.

I cried a lot but I said God is able and that same teacher gave me 90% for my lesson. What an incredible GOD, MY DADDY.

My grandfather (Maternal) bought me a new battery and charger and my phone worked well afterwards.

My eczema is clearing slowly but surely. My secret: I demand for supernatural healing power of God to be like oil all over me. Try it, I have seen it work on many people who had bones pains and even muscle pains and I have faith one day God will use me to raise dead people. Phew! What an alive picture (LOL-Laughing out Loud). Goosebumps all over whhhoooo weeeeeeeee!

My mother spoke Irvine Rajgopaul from church that is a part of the phoenix branch church (South Africa) to install Microsoft for me and he did that Sunday for a combined meeting. He agreed and I was over the moon.



Irvine and Leola Rajgopaul



My bursary was not suppose to pay me during teaching practice in July because they paid me a small amount in may but they paid me three times that amount.

GOD CAN

GOD IS ABLE

GOD IS MORE THAN ABLE

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

GOD CAN DO THE IMPOSSIBLE IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW

GOD IS NOT MAN THAT HE WILL LIE

Filteration: Spiritual Persepective

23 July 2012

God leaves me air locked time and time again. You think God has amazed you and then he does a supernatural stunt superseding the previous supernatural miracle. This is our God, who is like Yahweh. None I tell you, none like my Abba father. This post was inspired when I looked at my bbm (blackberry messenger) when my spiritual Daddy (Pastor Trevor Dolan) was chatting to me, everyone should have a spiritual Dad like mine, a true father; we need fathers to arise on the Earth. That my darlings is another post altogether. (Smiles). 

All I wanted to bbm to Dad the following message “I am looking at your profile picture. You have a funnel. The purpose of a funnel is to ensure no oil spillages”. I planned to type just that message but the spirit took over and I was prophetically inspired. Once a started typing and I could not stop, this is what I ended up typing, I could not believe it. Remember I said I typed “I am looking at your profile picture. You have a funnel. The purpose of a funnel is to ensure no oil spillages. (Continuation) at school with the grade sevens we are doing filtration and use a funnel and filter paper. The filter paper represents the word of God. The funnel is red which represents the blood can be associated with Christ. Filtration is a process where the liquid and solid mixture is separated. Only the water passes through.

I was shocked how it all flowed. Dad replied “don’t be amazed. The Bible says GO FORTH DAUGHTERS OF ZION….therefore inspired words and thoughts are going to come forth”

Girl power (Smirk)

Lets decode it all further

There has to be a physical separation between particles.

Example:

Looking at a mixture of corn seeds, magnets with stones, rocks and water is an example of some of our lives. The magnets are examples of the things we could be attracted to. The water is the word of God. Corn seeds are the seeds we have planted in the depths of our hearts, it can be like us waiting to be multiplied and produce fruit. The stones are like obstacles which stand in our way but the rock is Jesus.

Looking at the picture which Pastor had as a profile picture. Il will upload it again to make it easy for you to look at it and think about it.

Study the picture and think about the following questions.

What would be the case if one poured down oil without using a funnel?

Out of 200ml of oil being poured, how much oil do you think will really be poured into an oil tank of a car?

How is it important that we use a funnel when pouring oil into an oil tank?

Let us look now at a water and stones mixture. We will need a beaker if we are in a lab but since we are relating it to a spiritual aspect, let us say it is a clay jar the potter moulded for us. The funnel is Jesus because through we go to the father, the water represents the word and the holy spirit, the filter paper is the word of God.

The Harvest

Unsure if you have four fingers your natural colour and a green thumb, which does not mean you have super powers or you related to Hulk (Sarcastic look). All it means is you have fingers that plant and what you put your hand to is blessed because it grows upright and green but most importantly if it is fruit or flower plant it must bear fruit in season and produce flowers.

I recall planting carrots and corn at the age of around eight. It was so fun for me because I use to spend so much time reading, I loved so much. My mum gave me both packets one containing carrot seeds and the other containing corn.

Who was not aware of her actions. (P.S You have to read to find out)

 My mother said to me “Leticia! Do not do anything until I get back because you are not sure how to plant”. I looked at her without saying any words but through body language she knew what was going on in my little mischief mind. My mother asked me if I heard her, like obviously I am paying attention, I am looking at you (Thinking). Mother mentioned in order for our plants to grow properly, before we plant we must clean the area of rocks and toss the soil a bit. All this talk was making me more eager. As soon as my mother entered the house it was like I was a prisoner who through years of torture finally, found a way to escape.

I hurriedly opened each packet, took two seeds from one and three from the other, I did not have the time to count, I just put my finger in and grabbed whatever I could. I pushed the seeds in a haphazard order in my small patch my mother reserved for me. I was going to surprise my mother and plant all but when I reached my thumb and pointer finger in a carrot seeds packet I could hear her approaching. I felt like I was a step away from freedom but the security guard was on his or her way in this case, making her way to my cell. In the whole rush I tore the carrot seed containing packet as a grand exit for my mother from our house but even more stunning entrance outside.

Holding both packets of seeds tightly in my hand. The packets seemed plastic but if it was play dough I can guarantee it is now made one. My mother just knew I did something wrong. She asked me for the seeds, I said to her in the most caring voice “Ma’am you do what you want to do here and I will watch you and then I will give you the seeds”. Silly me, I just gave it away. Mum insisted I hand it to her straight away. I did hand it to her straight away but in slow motion, how hilarious. When I finally reached the point of placing the packet in her hands I clenched my fist real tight not wanting to let go of the packet because the results would not be of friendliest of nature. My mother’s back bent over towards me, she lifted her dark brown eyes towards me and I swallowed my smile but my smile made its way up my throat (Upward Peristalsis which is Vomit) and squeezed its way through my one sided dimple cheeks. My mother gave me a stiff look and that LOOK my dear friends in Christ was enough motivation to let go off the packet.

I faced music which was not in sync. My mother is not the best of singers any way (Pray you {Mother} do not read this blog post for some odd sort of reason). My mother cleared the area, we removed weeds, tossed the soil and we planted the seeds in a row and in a sequence. Each day I would spare a few minutes from all my reading, drawing, collections of items (Stamps, money from different Countries, sea Shells, Valuable stones), scrap booking and playing with my education clown (Taught me to tie a shoe lace, put a button, a press stud and use a zip)just to look at my small Garden Patch. I would smile so much to see what I planted actually grew.

 My great Grandmother (Maternal-Grand dads Mother) was mixed between Indian and German. Christina Margaret was her name and she had a green thumb, so did my mother and I was pleased to know I did too. Day after day I would visit my Garden Patch; my mum showed me how one carrot plant was not growing because of the lack of sunlight. My mother asked me if I want to see carrots grow and if I want to eat corn. I felt it was a silly question but at age eight I knew she had a point. I nodded meaning yes and so you should water it daily and not too much of water because you will drown your plants, she added. I remember thinking why plants cannot swim.

Day after day as a good farmer I would tend to my crops, water it and pull out any unwanted plants growing. If you do not look like carrot leaves or corn leaves then you cannot put your roots in my garden patch I would think. One day it rained and I was running outside to put a plastic packet over my precious crops and my mum stopped me together with my uncle and grandparents, well that was before they laughed themselves sick. My plants are going to drown and my family is laughing at me. We are wasting time here. Every time my mother laughed her hands would be loosened around my arms so it was easier for me to escape. I was now standing two steps away from our wooden door, the rain came pouring they had to close the door. My family can laugh for hours and talk at the same time but we will require an interpreter. After all our laughing sessions my mother explained to me “Rain is good for the plants”

Rather confused I looked at her and said in a confused but confirming tone “You told me if I put too much of water they will drown”. My mother smiled and said God will not drown them, you think plants and trees all over the world are drowning. It is not a flood.

Next day, first thing that beautiful cleared sky morning I dashed outside to check on my Garden patch. Mum was right, they were pretty fine, I uprooted a carrot, and it was thin as a bamboo stick. Mum, came outside to check on me. It is quite amazing how she knew just when to make her way through towards me. It is as if my mother knew when I was getting up to mischief or was it her knowing me too well or was it her being attached to me because of her being a single parent or me being an only child. Whatever it may be it was crazy I do not understand it even the age of 22. “What are you doing”, she asked in authority. “I was checking if it is ready and they are okay”, I replied. Mother said to me that I should be patient and if I just planted it how I expect it to be ready so fast.

A few days later I go outside to stand a few minutes and I was producing the cutest smile when my eyes saw my carrots and corn uprooted. I looked around me to see grey monkey all staring at me as I shrieked for my dear mother. It was a free live performance for them. They damaged my crops, so upset, I cried. My mum said I must not worry because there are more seeds and not all crops were uprooted. Next day I go to find my Grand dads sister, Dorothy was checking to see what it was so pulling one out was not enough proof so she pulled out all. Devastated, I cried even more, this was the last of planting for me, my mum said No we can always plant again. I said No, no more; monkeys and people are too inquisitive. I ran inside I felt I was better off reading books.

A few hours later my mother calls me outside to see something. I refused to go outside to be reminded of my heartbreak. She insisted and I disliked any one mentioning my name more than thrice, it annoyed me. I ran out to see she planted all the crops again. I was over the moon, she helped me tend and water it. One day there where leaves bitten and we found locusts in our garden, she planted a few more just in case. I tasted the carrots, so fresh and juicy with a few grain sands I had forgotten to rinse off due to excitement.

LIFE LESSONS:

I was disobedient to open the packet containing seeds. Mother said to me to wait and she would guide me but I wanted to do things my way and in my time. How many times has disobedience in our lives brought us into unexpected situations like the seeds being wasted in my Garden patch or the torn Carrot seed packet?

How many times we suppose to repent before God but we took our time and wasted time like when I handed my mother the packet of seeds in slow motion. I knew I was wrong but I delayed in confessing.

When you do wrong God knows. There have been occasions we got away with our parents (very rarely) but you cannot try this trick with our all-knowing Father.

Before planting there is a process one must follow carefully. My mother gave me the instructions and God gives us instruction in various ways and one way in particular is the Bible, our book of instruction.

Removing rocks is removing obstacles and bondages. Uprooting weeds is uprooting strongholds. Tossing the soil is like throwing away the old hurts and pains.

Looking at my crops was not helping its growth. I needed to water it. Water represents the Holy Spirit. Looking at the harvest, acknowledging the harvest and smiling at it is all good in the first few seconds of you admiring the harvest but what actions are you putting to maintain and reap this harvest. The harvest is ripe but are the labourers ready?

When outside influences come to kill and destroy your crops like my family member, monkeys and locusts. God will come and give life and restore in abundance.

From the dark valleys to the mountain tops of Zion

God is amazing me more and more by these posts. God is confirming my post through my Spiritual Daddy, Pastor Trevor Dolan’s word ministered any time or through status messages. These blog posts are THE NOW WORD. Read with an open mind.

                                                                                                                     

Valley and mountains represent contrasting positions physical and spiritually.

Valleys	Mountains
Lower than Mountains	Higher than Valleys
Some of the Examples in the Bible are Valley of Becca meaning weeping. Valley of Dry Bones	Some of the Examples in the bible are Mount Hebron which represents Covenant and Mount Zion which David built his Kingdom on.
Is low moments in life and speaks of up and down	Elevated moments in life and speaks of heights.
No Progress	Progress
Insight and foresight limited because all around you are the same as where you stand	Insight and foresight is unlimited because you stand on the mountain and overlook the environment in front of you
Mice and chickens (Pastor ministered on chickens in the valley)	Eagles found on mountain’s
Narrow floors	Enough room-Rehoboth means make room
Below	above

Valleys

The definition of a valley is a HOLLOW surface or DEPRESSION with predominant extent in one direction. The word depression is a rather interesting pun I would think. In a valley position your spirit is lowered due to disruptive, disappointing, devastating, depressive moments, I would love to put a name tag on it called 4D. This is no 4D baby scan.

You are empty (hollow) like those white sugar coated Easter eggs. It is easier to crush a hollow object than a solid one. You are at a vulnerable state, a wounded prey.

Valleys have different shapes like V, U or flat shaped. You rather walk in circles if you decide to get comfortable in a valley position. A flat shaped valley reminds me of Social Science lesson in intermediate phases and learning about Christopher Columbus. Every one made speculation Earth is made flat and if one had to keep traveling maybe north they would fall off the face of the Earth

And end up where? Mina Angaas

Christopher Columbus wanted to see for himself and he sailed on a ship and found new places. New people, new environments but he had to be brave and go against what others were saying.

What are others saying about you?

What are people saying about you through body language, gossip, words?

Are their actions tarnishing your shine?

Are you affected by it?

If my dried up salty tears could flow back into my eyes and tell you  stories  of how they were formed, how people have defined me. Never forget your identity is found in Christ. It is more difficult, note the “D”.  When close family members or loved ones are the ones which poke at your character. Through what you are experiencing in the valley, never forget to praise God through it all. Do not run to God only when there is trouble. Some people say to me they want to ask a favour, without hesitating I ask them “What is wrong hun” knowing there must be something wrong and might need prayer. They tell me what is wrong and I pray for them. I guaranty if I call them for a prayer meeting or visit their church. They will not be there.

 WHY? You only know God when you choose to. You not are sitting in a WHO WANTS TO BE A MILLIONAIRE SHOW.

  Call a friend?

I got three friends to call, God, frank, Fathima. I can call God because I know he will know have the answer. You calling God because you know he is only person who will help in a tight position. After you win the money, you are asked what you are going to do and you say I am going to go out with Fathima and Frank.  Where is God in this Equation?

 Things are all rosy so I do not need God you think.

Look at my complete profile and search for a question I ask all people who read my profile.

I know you are too lazy to read it or might forget so here it is (A portion of it)

Are you an EMERGENCY CHRISTIAN? Only when you need God

REMEMBER:

Psalms  23 V 4

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death, I will Fear no evil, for you are with me, your staff and rod they comfort me.

Analysis: I have no fear but faith because Emmanuel, God with us is with me. When there is fear and doubt the Holy Spirit comforts us.

Mountains

The mountains are rocky material. Christ is my rock and my sure foundations. The air is different on the mountain top. You are on higher altitudes. Eagles are found on mountain tops. When you are on the mountain top you have a choice to look down on people or help them realize they are not progressing.  You feel different on the mountain because you are surrounded by a different an environment. Make a covenant on the mountain top, Hebron. Build on the rock of your home, mount Zion. Mount Zion represents a place of intimacy with God. Shout out from the mountain tops and blow the trumpet. Moses went up to Mount Sinai where he received the ten commandments of the Lord. Instruction is therefore given on the mountain tops. David took the Ark of the Covenant to the mountain top and built his kingdom on Mount Zion so he could oversee the people and pass laws and decrees there. A Tsunami hit Indonesia a few years ago and you find people where wondering what is going on because all these animal life seemed to be heading towards the mountain. A few people realized something was drastically wrong and decided to move to the mountains for safety. When they final got to the mountain they saw the waters cover buildings and the entire sea shore was converted into an ocean bed. On the mountain you have insight and foresight that is advance and will edify and save you and people around you.

Moving from A Valley to A mountain

1.   Make up your mind to move from a valley to the mountain.

2.   Do not make a fire and build a tent in the valley. These are signs of getting comfortable.

3.   Leave your burdens at the foot of the mountain which represents the feet of Jesus.

4.   Do not let the rivers fool you because they are the rivers of depression and pool of pity.

5.   Faith will be your wings when you mount up on wings like eagles and soar towards the mountains.

6.   Mice are on the ground and are eaten by flying eagles. You want to be the eater or eaten, predator prey. I do not feel edible at this point, thank you.

7.   Do not think climbing the mountain takes too long or too much of effort to climb and then make your OWN mind up to take an alternative route. Lot took an alternative route instead of the mountains (Ministered by Pastor on the 13^th and 20^th of May-Kainos Covenant Community_Chatsworth). Lot never listen to the Angel of God and took an alternative route to Zoar found in Genesis 19 V 22 which means small and insignificant. 

8.   Looking at the mountain is not going to help you climb it when you at the foot of the mountain. Looking at the top will help you climb that mountain.

9.   Let us climb this mountain so we can visit someone I know well who lives there. The God most high.

10.               In the mountain you are closer to the sun, yes the son of God.

11.               There is rest on the mountain top.

12.               There is no being boxed in like in the valleys but there is enough room on the mountains so you are free and not restricted.

13.               God has prepared a table for you to dine with you

14.               Standing on the mountain you can see those who are down in the valleys. Help them come up to the mountain top.

15.               There is no more sadness and tears or dryness but Joy, no lack, living water.

16.                        In impartation on 22^nd may Christopher Pillay made an important point, he said, you either choose Zoar or to Soar. Funny statement but serious statement.